It's been a while but there is nothing to talk about in my life. Of course things are happening, but nothing important. My exams are coming up really quickly and I try to study as much as I can. I may skip "medical image precessing" and focus more on "artificial intelligence" or on the GRE and Toefl Test I have to write in the same week. These two tests are more important than anything else right now. Failure is not an option, because if I do my 9 month USA is gone gone gone....

Yeah have I told you guys that I may study at the University of Georgia in Athens,GA for 9 month. wuhu, that's going to be fun. I'm in the middle of preparation to finish my application. I always wanted to study in the USA so let's hope I don't screw it up this time. ;)

While I focus in my career, haha that's fun to say, my love life is like dead. Seriously, the funeral was years ago... It's not that I'm hiding in my room and wait for someone to knock. I'm outgoing, I meet so many new people, but it seems like nobody is interested in me or I'm interested in them. My love life sucks, but at least I have my career. Yeah ;/

Right now I feel awful. I hit the gym this morning to get my body in shape for summer. I haven't been in the gym for almost two weeks and I feel so bad about it. Normally I go about 3 times a week and it's fun, but these days I'm not in the mood. At the same time I hate myself not going and being lazy.

The day is almost over and I spent most of it on a freaking table in the library to study for my exams. And the funny thing is that I haven't learned anything. I'm writing emails, looking for new textures and icons and chat with people. Sometimes internet isn't the best way to prepare yourself for the exams. But I don't want to print 600 pages of the lecture script.

haha, and I think I forgot to tell you people that I uploaded a new layout ;) Thanks again to reversescollide For now it's only temporary and I will edit the header soon. Maybe I will try something grey's anatomy like. ;) just love this show.
I watched the latest episode and was just amazed. Can't wait to see the next two episodes...

I should also improve my lj activity. I haven't posted any graphics anywhere or participate at any icon challenges. And I just love those little graphics. I know only a few people here but I hope to make some more friends here as well. SO just leave a comment ;)

Any thing else? Hmm...Oscar night is coming up fast. Yeah ;D

I'm not a big fan of mornings, but I especially hate monday mornings. Who invented that? Today I had like 4 cups of coffee and I still feel tired. Some friends and I went to IKEA for breakfast and did some morning shopping, of course I wasn't in the mood to buy anything.
There was this great idea to start this week with learning and more research on my upcoming exams. But the plan failed. Hell. I'm so bored right now, but I'm not motivated enough to read the script again. I only have two big exams this year, medical image processing and artificial intelligence, but it's just soo much work.

Maybe I hit the gym this evening to haven at least one productive thing in my life....but I'm so tired. Someone out there to cheer me up?

So many things have changed since I posted here the last time. It's already 2007 -so much time passed by. I spent my new years eve in Berlin and had such a wonderful time with my friends there. We even had time for some shopping and visit starbucks for a cup of coffee. I miss starbucks ;/

Right now, I should learn for my exams because the semester is almost over. But I can't focus. Two days ago I got a letter that I'm accepted for a scholarship to study in USA. So I'm actually doing research on university application, visa and tests I have to take. It's a lot of paper work and nothing is certain, yet.
So don't get your hopes up ;)

I also went on a concert two weeks ago, the Fratellis. A friend told me about them and we decided to see them in cologne. It was so much fun and the band totally rocked the house. I also wanted to see the Sounds because I love their sound and the latest album "Dying To Say This To You". Unfortunately I have an exam on the same day. Maybe next time.

So if you guys haven't heard from them:

I haven't posted anything the past days and weeks. I wasn't into the mood or I was learning my ass off for my last exam. And yeah it's all finally over and now I miss something in my life. You are planing so many thing what you would do in your free time, thinking about places you would visit and people you want spend time with, but now...when I finally have the time for this...I wanted to do none of these things. Maybe it's the bad weather or the missing sleep of the past weeks, but I don't feel ready to get back out there in life and enjoy the things I was thinking about before. So I spend day after day alone thinking about life and why I'm so bored about myself. I feel sleepy the whole day, watch tv and just do nothing. And I actually hate that about me. I feel so bad when I go to bed and haven't done at least one little thing that's important. But it's not that there is nothing to do. God no, there are so many things to do and work on, but they don't get me excited.
And I'm sick of working on project nobody  appreciate. But I'm also worried to turn into this guy who is more dreaming his life than actually living it. But for now I'm taking a break and spend some quality time with MYSELF. Hopefully I'll find some answers about myself, love and all the things who should be important to me. Hopefully soon. I talk a lot about feelings in general or with other people about there feelings, but when it comes to mine I get a little shy and keep them for myself. Especially when I have the feeling there is anybody out there who truly cares about them. I have a lot of friends and only a few do really know me that well. But for those I'm happy every minute in my life.

Friendship is something that is really important to me and it's a shame that I lost connect to some of my best friends. But I'm sure they are also busy with their own life. I'm so sorry for that and maybe in the near future this will all change...
And now I go to bed and cheer me up with some songs. And tomorrow is a new day and a new start. I'm going to cut my hair this week, some shopping maybe and go to the open air cinema with a good friend.
Cya guys

Is this some kind of a joke? I planed on spending my whole weekend on a beach and enjoy the summer weather. My exams are over and for the first time I could actually enjoy the sun. But not... someone must hate me, because this weekend the weather turned into rain and a lot of clouds. WHAT THE HELL!!!!

So I decided to do some reading and watch television. Some friends are going to a festival, but I'm not really into this year's artists. Maybe the day would have been better if I had a cup of coffee this morning. Why isn't there a starbucks near my home? Sometimes I hate germany...

If you want to know what my mood is in the morning, just watch the clip:

How can she do this to me! Kristen Bell is in a three year relationship. tz. I should break them up to have this beautiful and lovely lady for my own. That's want I'm doing.

I found a lovely video of Kirsten on youtube. So funny!

This is what comes up, when you do one of the stupid tests you find in the net. I am the europe type? And why did I spend the last three days of my european life on a beach or in a swimming pool? tz...I'm not done with this.
I got this test from lostmytemper and I'm not really sure why I did the test. Here we go:

You Should Spend Your Summer in Europe

You're in to almost all forms of culture - art, music, architecture, food... And spending a summer at the beach sounds pretty darn boring to you. So head off to Europe, where you can have your tiramisu (and even eat it on the beach!)

Same friends and I hit the clubs yesterday until 5 am and maybe because of that I was tired like hell. And what can you do today after hanging on the beach for some hours? Right, watch some weeds episodes. Unfortunately the second season isn't out yet..I think in august my obsession will return. ;) But to be honest, Mary-Louise Parker is a wonderful and talented actress. I adore her character in weeds and just love this show. It's soooo funny and always different from other shows.
So I decided to make some icons. Nothing special, but I just wanted to do something...

[8 - Weeds 1x01 You Can't Miss The Bear]
- credit please
- no hotlinking

Teaser:



( little boxes on the hillside )

I'm not really sure what I'm posting about because nothing really happend today. I woke up at 10 am, drove to the beach and relaxed there until now. I hope my skin isn't that burned and hopefully it will turn out more brown than red. Hah, can life be more fun?
Tonight I'm gonna meet some friends I haven't seen in month. There is a little party and Sebastian is always for some fun on the weekend.

Ahh and I found this awesome icon of Jensen Ackles in Dark Angel. It looks like Jensen was on the beach too. Maybe right next to me ;D

Speaking of icons. Here are the V for Vendetta I talked about yesterday. I've seen some in this style and tried to design some icons in that style too. Just love them as I do!

[13 - V for Vendetta]
- credit please
- no hotlinking

Teaser:


( ideas are bulletproof )

What's wrong with this world? I know it's summer and I love hanging out on the beach or on a lake. But serously who wants to work or study while it's so hot out there. I need 40 with to bus to university and I could take a shower again the time we arrive. This is reason enough to skip some classes and go swimming instead.

And this leads to the next question. Classes are almost over and I have a 3 month vacation to fill. I'm going to work for four weeks to fresh up my financial status. I NEED MORE MONEY! But after that? I go to Budapest for 2 weeks. It's a summer class and sounded interessting, but not anymore... I just want to hand out on a beach and read a book or something. Maybe I go to spain for a week and visit some friends there or I go to turkey for a week in a all inclusive hotel. /o/ We will see...

I have some V for Vendatta Icons for you guys. I will add them with the next update. Promise. And it won't take me an other month to update again.

Ok, I give it up, I'm obsessed. I finished the last episode of Veronica Mars yesterday and I can't wait to see the new season. Last week I didn't even know what this show is, but this weekend I start watching and after three days I'm finally through. /o/
I love that girl. Her blond hair, her pretty smile and the amazing style...what else do you need. Hmm, I should get some new JL icons about her ;)

Any fans out there?

It's 9 am and I'm the only person online here. My life is so boring and have no idea how to change that. I'm so happy when these 4 weeks working gonna be over. Finally have some extra money is great, but that it. This is THE ONLY good part.

I even wasn't in the mood for the open air movie event here in town. They played "Motorcycle Diary" and I so wanna see this movie. But it was too late and nobody wanted to come with me. And these people I call friends. tz tz tz. ;D

It's my friends 21 birthday tomorrow and I can't wait to join this party ;) Who cares that I have to work the next day. You only turn 21 one time, so let's celebrate!

Did I meantion that I'm f***ing tired. ;/ And there are still 7 hours to go. ;/

Uhhh why is this community so popular. You need weeks to know how everything works here. I feel so lost right now. Hello, each board or web community is more easy to handle than this one.
But here is also so much interesting stuff and it must have something and I have this account since...months, years.

I just love this grey and red design I made up today and also the header featuring Jake Gyllenhaal. I have no idea to put those stupid links somewhere else, but I'll work on that.

Weekend is almost over and I'm tired. But when I'm going to bed I have only some hours spending on sleeping until I have to get up again for work. I may sound weird, but trust me, I AM. ;D
I'm so glad that September 16th comes closer and closer, because than I'll fly with some friends to spain. I really need this vacation. And let's hope so that the weather will be fine too for some great days on the beach. ;)

Uhh by the way. I have this Jake mood them, but haven't the time to add it (or just don't know how to do it) Maybe tomorrow